500 days of ?

I just finished watching 500 days of summer. it was a little disapointing. i guess i'm a sucker for a cliched ending.

anyway its that time again. things are going ok lately, looking up i guess. or about to.
i got a job at a discount bookstore in bondi junction and its going well so far. its fantastic that it only takes me 5 or so minutes on the bus to get to work. so amazing.
the people im working with are nice, seem agreeable and easygoing which is good. i love the work, i just need to make sure i concentrate on getting the job instead of constantly flicking through books i want to buy. i seriously have a list half a page long of what i wanna buy come pay day :-) wellll maybe in a few pay days time - rent still priority one, and im not making quite enough to cover that yet.

so i've been seeing alot of em and iylia lately, going out wise. stayed at their place thurs-sat and it was epic, EPIC. let me reiterate this for you, epicccc. We didn't sleep or eat for 3 days, just drank and drank and drank. it was fantastic because i didnt have a hangover - but everything caught up fairly quickly sat night. thurs we went to q bar, which was ok. my first time there and i dont know if i'd bother going back. the smoking area is a joke, some guy pushed me over just to get through lol stacked it down some stairs pretty good and have a gnarly bruise. lucky i was drunk and didnt actually feel any pain. picked up a friend, ben, and took him home with us, where we continued drinking smoking and chatting at ems till about 1 in the afternoon, then we took the goon bag to the roof and layed in the sun. it was sooo nice, i couldnt think of a better way to spend the day. got to about 6 and we headed inside, decided we should have a micro sleep (by micro i mean about 40 min) then it was back to jack in preparation for british india!! which was amazing, me and nic pretty much stared at eachother the whole time. doubtful he recognised me, but had a nice stare anyways. then headed to oxford arts, brighton, there was alot of drinking, some fighting and me and em parted ways, some the skater boys and ended up at glebe house. a little too much drink, and a bit too much green, and i found myself on the bathroom floor with a new best friend aka the toilet. woke up with my head in the bowl about 8am the nxt day, toilet bowl bruises on my chin and all, legendary, haha then crashed in beau's room till i found emily wandering around about 1pm. then it was back hm, treck to maccas, and back to eat it at ems. while shirtless male models walked around her house. it was amazing.

anyway that was my epic couple of days. i dnt think ill be up for any more benders for a little while.

ive yet to go visit em at her new place in mosman so thats on the books, me and bon are catching up this week for a movie/goon night which will be good, and ive still been talking to sam - who i met a couple of weekends ago. see what happens there.

anyway this is a shockingly written blog, and excuse the lack of/absence of punctuation. just recordings, thats all.

adios.

Why does it always rain on me?

Today I woke up around 7am, already intent on the fact that I did not want to, nor was going to, go to work. So I messaged my excuse and that was that. I preceeded to sleep in until 12, made some honey on toast and crashed back into bed to watch tv series on my laptop. I continued to pick at food I didn't actually want, smoke ciggarette I didn't actually need and watch pointless tv to pass the time - and that was my day. I got a message from my boss saying he has hired someone new aka I'd become redundant, I got a message from my other boss saying he'd see me at work tomorrow - and having already lost one job, I didn't know how I was going to go about quitting the other - as it's just not working out.

So, I've almost made a full circle, and it seems I'm back to the beginning. No job, back into old habits, and 2 weeks for something amazing to pop up, or my parents are making me move back home. And I really don't want to leave Sydney!!

While on Seek tonight, trying to apply for any which job I came across, I found my ideal job at a magazine megastore opening on King St in Newtown. I want this job soooo bad. And so I really hope I get it. Check out the website, I swear, it's my heaven. Anything that can combine magazines and stationary, only my two fave things, has to be good. www.magnation.com/index.php

So that's where I am. I sat on the balcony for ages this afternoon, blowing through the last of my ciggarettes and thinking to myself, when, if ever, does life become easy? I don't mean to say I have it hard over other people, because I completely understand I don't. You only need to turn on a television or open a newspaper to realise that, but on a comparative scale, not comparing, how can you enjoy life when you are constantly stressed, lost, confused, and have no idea where you are - let alone where you want to be? I want so much for everything to work out, and yet I don't know how I can manage that.

When it rains, it pours..