500 days of ?

I just finished watching 500 days of summer. it was a little disapointing. i guess i'm a sucker for a cliched ending.

anyway its that time again. things are going ok lately, looking up i guess. or about to.
i got a job at a discount bookstore in bondi junction and its going well so far. its fantastic that it only takes me 5 or so minutes on the bus to get to work. so amazing.
the people im working with are nice, seem agreeable and easygoing which is good. i love the work, i just need to make sure i concentrate on getting the job instead of constantly flicking through books i want to buy. i seriously have a list half a page long of what i wanna buy come pay day :-) wellll maybe in a few pay days time - rent still priority one, and im not making quite enough to cover that yet.

so i've been seeing alot of em and iylia lately, going out wise. stayed at their place thurs-sat and it was epic, EPIC. let me reiterate this for you, epicccc. We didn't sleep or eat for 3 days, just drank and drank and drank. it was fantastic because i didnt have a hangover - but everything caught up fairly quickly sat night. thurs we went to q bar, which was ok. my first time there and i dont know if i'd bother going back. the smoking area is a joke, some guy pushed me over just to get through lol stacked it down some stairs pretty good and have a gnarly bruise. lucky i was drunk and didnt actually feel any pain. picked up a friend, ben, and took him home with us, where we continued drinking smoking and chatting at ems till about 1 in the afternoon, then we took the goon bag to the roof and layed in the sun. it was sooo nice, i couldnt think of a better way to spend the day. got to about 6 and we headed inside, decided we should have a micro sleep (by micro i mean about 40 min) then it was back to jack in preparation for british india!! which was amazing, me and nic pretty much stared at eachother the whole time. doubtful he recognised me, but had a nice stare anyways. then headed to oxford arts, brighton, there was alot of drinking, some fighting and me and em parted ways, some the skater boys and ended up at glebe house. a little too much drink, and a bit too much green, and i found myself on the bathroom floor with a new best friend aka the toilet. woke up with my head in the bowl about 8am the nxt day, toilet bowl bruises on my chin and all, legendary, haha then crashed in beau's room till i found emily wandering around about 1pm. then it was back hm, treck to maccas, and back to eat it at ems. while shirtless male models walked around her house. it was amazing.

anyway that was my epic couple of days. i dnt think ill be up for any more benders for a little while.

ive yet to go visit em at her new place in mosman so thats on the books, me and bon are catching up this week for a movie/goon night which will be good, and ive still been talking to sam - who i met a couple of weekends ago. see what happens there.

anyway this is a shockingly written blog, and excuse the lack of/absence of punctuation. just recordings, thats all.

adios.

Why does it always rain on me?

Today I woke up around 7am, already intent on the fact that I did not want to, nor was going to, go to work. So I messaged my excuse and that was that. I preceeded to sleep in until 12, made some honey on toast and crashed back into bed to watch tv series on my laptop. I continued to pick at food I didn't actually want, smoke ciggarette I didn't actually need and watch pointless tv to pass the time - and that was my day. I got a message from my boss saying he has hired someone new aka I'd become redundant, I got a message from my other boss saying he'd see me at work tomorrow - and having already lost one job, I didn't know how I was going to go about quitting the other - as it's just not working out.

So, I've almost made a full circle, and it seems I'm back to the beginning. No job, back into old habits, and 2 weeks for something amazing to pop up, or my parents are making me move back home. And I really don't want to leave Sydney!!

While on Seek tonight, trying to apply for any which job I came across, I found my ideal job at a magazine megastore opening on King St in Newtown. I want this job soooo bad. And so I really hope I get it. Check out the website, I swear, it's my heaven. Anything that can combine magazines and stationary, only my two fave things, has to be good. www.magnation.com/index.php

So that's where I am. I sat on the balcony for ages this afternoon, blowing through the last of my ciggarettes and thinking to myself, when, if ever, does life become easy? I don't mean to say I have it hard over other people, because I completely understand I don't. You only need to turn on a television or open a newspaper to realise that, but on a comparative scale, not comparing, how can you enjoy life when you are constantly stressed, lost, confused, and have no idea where you are - let alone where you want to be? I want so much for everything to work out, and yet I don't know how I can manage that.

When it rains, it pours..

Pork and Beans

Updates updates..

well I'm employed! Got a job at a sales & marketing company in surry hills - so pretty chuffed. neverending job hunting, well, 4 weeks worth, finally paid off.

I've picked up Tae Bo again and am feeling great, even if my muscles don't really like me the next day... I am seriously counting the days down to summer! And beach time! And me and bon's TTT pact. Well, soon to be pact lol.

I'm loving Glee, sadly enough downloaded the soundtrack this afternoon.
Also did grocery shopping, and worked. Spent alot of time at bus stops, Sydney buses drive me mad, though thank goodness for the old man next to me at central who decided he wanted to make farting noises with his mouth for full 25 min we stood there. While occasionally having a break to comment on the weather. Fantastic, really.

So this week I have training for work Tues-Wed, Metronomy (WOO!) and have a friend from back home coming up to stay so good week ahead I think :-)

Thats bout it :-)

Uninteresting Event Updates: September Edition

I felt like updating and now I don't, but ohwell, it's been a while.

So, I got a weekend job at a little cafe in Enmore, and I'm really liking it.
I pretty much get to drink free coffee all day, listen to good music and (for the most part) serve cool people, so can't really complain. Oh wait, yes I can. Because it's me. And because it takes an hour and 3 buses just to get there at 10am Sat-Sun morning. Trivial, but ANOYING none-the-less, especially cos public transport in Syd is a joke. Not always, but nearly.

I gave uni the heave-ho, until next year atleast, to sort out myself and my priorities so see how that goes over the next couple of months.

I am so over job seeking it's not funny. I literally want to scream. If I ever look at a gumtree page again it will be too soon. Literally, because I'm just logging in now. Boooo.

So Coaster was a complete and utter failure. We got refused entry and abused and threatened physical abuse by a security guard on a power trip, who was "having a bad day", and caused us to have the worst weekend ever. Ended up getting in after 3 hours of trying but we had been crying heaps and lost Axel (who later we found in the hospital) so we left after an hour. A very successful hour of eating a hotdog which later made me sick, AND drumroll please.... loosing YET ANOTHER phone. Devo.

Me and Bon went to see Jamie T on Thursday and it was AMAZING. Such a fun show, sang along to every song and danced and left with no hearing, thanks to Bon.
Ended up at Phoenix Bar afterwards after meeting up with a friend of Bon's which was interesting, being a lesbian night. I danced the night away and had such a great time, it was so cool to not have guys complicating my night for once! Or me complicating my night because of a guy.

So today I am beaching it with Bon which will be good. Back to the job hunting and resume dropping next week, fingers crossed something pops up because I have one week left to find a job to support myself or I have to move back home to Bathurst :( It's fair enough though, my parents have been supporting me here all year, can't expect them to continue paying all that money while I'm getting no-where.

Soooo theres my uninteresting event updates. More soon.
:)

WARP

Ok so, been a little while so figured it was time for some updates, more so for myself to keep track of where I'm going - a big problem of mine as of late.

So alot has been going down in Syd as of late, and at the same time, not alot.
Uni isnt really going all that well, and so im facing failing, again. 2 semesters in a row, doesnt look so good huh. but im sorting it out, getting a doctors cert for my lack of attendance, and making yet another appointment with my student advisor. sadly, i dont think uni is for me. well scarily, really. why? because i have no idea what i wanna do, or be for that matter, i guess uni was sort of an excuse to put off thinking about it. going back to school after a year however, and with no real goal to reach or achieve at the end makes for a complete lack of motivation to succeed. i guess i should just want to succeed for the fact of succeeding, but its really not that easy.

anyway, other than that little mess, the new place, not so new anymore, is going great guns. the cat doesnt even bother me anymore. well, not as much.

friends are good, the guys in my life however, confusing as ever. one decides he wants me when i dont want him anymore, the other decided me wanted me, even though he still had a gf. decided not to tell me this, so needless to say the last few weeks havent been too pleasent with the gf constantly contacting me, and him saying they werent together anymore, and me finding out hes a liar. i dont understand how i manage to get all the bad ones. are there no decent guys in sydney? if there are, ive yet to meet any.

got coaster festival coming up in 2 weeks which i cant wait for, then jamie t the week after, and hoping to get tix to stereosonic. LOVING the bloody beetroots.

anyway i guess thats really it from me, more updates as they come.

Ch-ch-changes

So, I'm sitting in my room, listening to the wind howling outside, and feeling likes it's time to document my time in Sydney so far, which, has been really great.

Starting backwards, Last night me and Bon got on the goon, in preparation for... Dr Phil. Yes, we went and saw Dr Phil live, in the flesh, in all his yankee glory, and he was amazing.
I have never been one for talk shows. Since moving here I swear Dr Phil and Oprah have become staples. And we even bought t-shirts saying "Dr Phil". I really want to wear it to uni one day.

I've been seeing alot of this new guy lately, and he's sort of been a staple at my house, after numerous sleepovers, and I can't seem to form any emotional ties to him. He's fantastic. Really nice, funny, approachable, and chatty. I mean, what more could you ask for? And yet his fatal flaw, is that he is chatty. I feel everything is so one sided. Sure, I am getting to know him great because he never shuts up. And he is really intelligent and insightful and has something to say about everything, but I'm beginning to see what my housemate already has - that he's a little too full of himself. Because he isn't really giving me any chance to share myself, I can't make myself be more interested. When I'm out with his friends though, or I'm drinking away from home, its completely different. They are all so great, and you can just tell he fits in so well there. Maybe it's having him in my comfort zone, so quickly and so often, that's putting me off a bit. This always seems to happen to me, I know how to pick them, I just don't know where to go from here. Is it worth trying a little longer? I don't know. Something is just a little off, and I don't like that he assumes I'm "so into him" already. That just isn't how it is.

Anyway after that little rant. Had my xmas in july housewarming, which was great. Got trashed and ended up at sneakers, and then ended up coming very close to throwing up out the front of maccas. They don't open the toilets till 6am, how stupid is that.

Uni is going heaps better, everything has worked out, and I feel so much more positive about the direction in which I'm heading.

I'm loving Sydney, loving my new found independance having my own place, and loving the place itself. Life really, is not too shabby at all.

So, thats where I'm currently at. Me Bon Axel and Simon are going to some Drum & Bass thing tomorrow at Manning Bar, which should be intersting. Not my thing, in the slightest, but I'm open to something new.

A journey into mysteries of the sea..

The Bermuda Triangle is some freaky shit.

I've been on http://www.bermuda-triangle.org/ and am completely engrossed. If you have some free time, and an open mind, take a took. Interesting to say the least. I've become "a believer" ha.

FML.

I've been wondering around in the same nightie for 2 days straight now. Oh, I've showered, but back on it went. It's heidously oversized, see-through, which is a problem in itself, and used to be white, but mum managed to turn it to pale pink. Despite this, it feels so nice on, I love it. Seriously, if you don't own a moo moo, which in essence my beautiful nightie is, you need one.

I've also not ventured off the couch for 2 days, except for a tiny bit of houework, not only as I'm on holidays, and I can, but because I'm tired. And I was out the other nioght and fell over and sprained my ankle. Not seriously, I can hobble around, but it's soreeee. And of course, I manage to keep jarring it around no matter how still I try to keep it.

Anyway that's the newest from me.
Although, I went out the other night and managed to disgrace myself in several ways,
I went and bought ciggies from a friend of my mums, and kept yelling at him not to tell mum, because she doesnt know i smoke. I managed to kiss my little brothers best friend, who is nearly 3 years younger. My brother saw me. Kissed one of my best friends who just broke up with his gf, not the first time. the last time was when he was still with said gf. Showed all my guy friends my thighs and yelled about how much bigger they used to be, because I was proud I'd lost a bit of weight off them. And lastly, after a hedious fall on the dancefloor, left with a guy that I think might have been gay. Well, He wasn't sure if he liked girls better than guys. And the last person he'd been with was a guy. I'm not sure how I feel about that.

Anyway in conclusion, alcohol makes messes. Amazing how much different people can be after a few.

Christmas in July

So, first post for July, wowee.

Still in Bathurst, not moving into the new place till the weekend now, as I am completely and utterly unorganised and yet to accumulate any furniture to take down with me.

I was talking at my new flatmate about having a "house warming" of sorts, and then thought it could be fun to have a 'Christmas in July' theme. I have this awesome costume from a christmas party a couple of years ago I could recycle, and I mean who doesn't love dress up parties :)

Anyway that's really it, I think. Oh some goss, I found out the guy I was 'seeing' for the past 3 months was 'seeing' someone else at the same time. Aren't I a lucky girl. I wonder if he'd have told me if I hadn't seen him out with her. On the other hand, I moved on fairly quickly and have found someone I think may actually be interested. I swear, how hard is it to make up your mind?

That's it for today, off to watch some more Supernatch.

Streetlights, glowing..

SO officially off campus as on Sunday, and all my stuff's at the new place - so all thats left to do is furnish. Heading into town with Liss tomorrow to have a look around, need a new bed. And looking for some cool bits and pieces to throw around here and there.
Oh, check out THIS site, really cool. I want one. Or two.

So, that's really all thats occupying me at the moment. The start of everything, about to start. I'm on holidays for 3 weeks. Bonnie won tickets to see Dr. Phil at Acer Arena which is ridiculus. So I'm accompanying her. I've never really watched the show so, should be interesting.

I've been utterly disturbingly addicted to Grey's Anatomy lately, just finishing Season 5.
God that show is depressing, I woke up looking like someone had punched me in the face, my eyes were so puffy. From crying, I mean.

Pitter-pat.